May 2017 Journal

Mountain Bike Rides:  University Falls Loop, North Shore Trail,  Mountain of the Rogue, & Exercise Bike @ Crunch Fitness.’

Books:  ‘The Power of Awareness’ by Neville Goddard; ‘Gwendy’s Button Box’ by Stephen King, Richard Chizmar; ‘X’s For Eyes’ by Laird Barron; ‘The Cape: Deluxe Edition’ by Joe Hill, Jason Ciaramella, Zach Howard. Horrorscopes Adaptions:  ‘The Statement of Randolph Carter’ by H.P. Lovecraft, ‘The Door Below’ by Hugh B. Cave; ‘The Horror of Walker Point ‘by Anthony Marino.

Podcasts: S-Town.

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Jiu-Jitsu Studied:  Henry Akins’ Back Escapes, Cross-Sides Top.

Jiu-Jitsu Training: Back to regular sparring!

Mentalism/Magic:  ‘Positive/Negative’ Book by Watkins.

Movies:  Sully.


April 2017 Journal

Jiu-Jitsu: Henry Akins Avalanche Guard Passing, Open Guard Leg Work, Turtle/Quarter Bottom.

Movies/TV:  The Revenant; True Detective Season 1.

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Old Time Radio Shows:  Lights Out – ‘Valse Triste,’ ‘The Dark,’ ‘Poltergeist;’  Suspense – ‘Snow on 66,’ ‘House in Cypress Canyon,’ ‘Ghost Hunt,’ ‘On A Country Road;’  Quiet Please – ‘The Thing on the Fourble Board.’

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Music:  King Kendrick’s ‘DAMN.’

Sports:  Spring Football!

Books:  ‘Your Faith is Your Fortune’ by Neville Goddard;  ‘Voodoo Heart’ by Scott Snyder;  ‘Fatale: Book One, Death Chases Me’ by Ed Brubaker & Sean Phillips; ‘The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde’ by Robert Louis Stevenson;  ‘Tales from the Darkside’ by Joe Hill, Gabriel Rodriguez;  Short Stories/Novellas:  ‘Horrorscopes:  The Cask of Amontillado’ by Edgar Allen Poe, William Dufris; ‘By the Silver Water of Lake Champlain’ by Joe Hill; ‘Twittering from the Circus of the Dead’ by Joe Hill.

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Mind States: Giving versus Need

The less needy you are the more you have to give, as you aren’t focused on yourself.

The problem with neediness is it takes on many forms, skillfully camouflaging and cloaking itself in the ego’s effort to survive.  The trick is (not really a trick) is you can always feel this.

Let go, relax, and enjoy both life and thoughts as they arrive.

Mind States: More Enjoyment, Less Method

One thing I took from the Neville Goddard books listed below, is I’m still a bit of a tight ass when it comes to training and life in general…

Methods are great, but the key is understanding the principle behind the method.  Once you understand the principle you can adapt and customize in a way that is personally joyful and spontaneous.

What’s most important after all, is coming at our passion like a kid with a summer day ahead.  The rest is details!



March 2017 Journal

Crazy month.

Have a ton of hobbies and realized I make myself nuts with them, as any amount of time I take off, I feel a little guilty.  Kinda crazy when the whole object is positive feeling.

So yeah, re-set button; laid low, but did do some of the following… (more than I thought!)

Law of Attraction books:  Haven’t read any new-age books in probably over 10 years, but was interested in subconscious learning and stumbled onto author Neville Goddard and his books on the cheap at ‘Out of This World’ by Neville Goddard; ‘Control Your Inner Conversations’ by Neville Goddard; ‘Feeling is the Secret’ by Neville Goddard; ‘Manefestation Through Relaxation’ by Neville Goddard, Tim Grimes; ‘Relax More, Try Less’ by Neville Goddard, Tim Grimes; ‘The Relaxation Manifesto’ by Tim Grimes.

Other books:  ‘Insane Clown President: Dispatches from the 2016 Circus’ by Matt Taibbi; ‘Providence, Act 1’ by Alan Moore, Jacen Burrows; ‘The Elephant in the Room’ by Jon Ronson;  ‘At the Mountains of Madness’ by H.P. Lovecraft.

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Magic/Mentalism:  ‘P.A.T.H.S.’ by Matt Mello; ‘The Decode Project’ by Matt Mello.

Movies/Media:  More Richard Matheson adapted Edgar Allen Poe starring Vincent Price with the ‘The Raven (with young Jack Nicholson), and ‘Pit and the Pendulum.’ ‘Logan’ was a brilliant Hugh Jackman swan song that exceeded all expectations; ‘American Sniper.’

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Jiu-Jitsu:  Henry Akins Guard Passing, Cross-Side Escapes, and Leg Work from Open Guard.  Note:  Henry’s understanding of Jiu-Jitsu is so much deeper than mine, I’ve pretty much stopped Jiu-Jitsu blogging and spend time learning from him instead.

Training: 3 Focused Learnin’ Areas

Big on 3’s right now; have no idea why…

3 areas of focus in words: Fun, Legacy, & Competence.

Fun topical focus is doing whatever the hell you feel like focusing on in a given moment.  While this sounds a bit lazy, it actually allows room for your subconscious to flow and give you access to information that isn’t readily available when you try to plan every step of your Jiu-Jitsu path.  It’s Zen sh*t:  Focus with no focus.

Legacy topical focus is kinda the opposite of the above, even though it’s still fun.  It’s focusing on a specific topic at least 6 months.  6 months isn’t written in stone, but the idea is we are in an LTR with a position instead of hopping from bed to bed.  This is where we build depth of understanding.  We’re disciplined here: Zen sh*t.

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Competence topical focus will be defined as taking the soberest look possible at our game and addressing holes as they come up.  These holes will generally be revealed in sparring or by a coach.  This isn’t by nature as fun as fun (unless our attitude is humble and gracious), and we aren’t going to suss out holes in a legacy project because that’s more apt to be a strength than anything else.  Honesty: Zen sh*t too.

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